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As we grow up, we learn that people that weren't suppose to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others hearts. You'll blame a new love for things an old love did. You'll fight with your best friend, you'll cry because time is flying by and eventually you'll lose someone you love. So take too many picture, laugh took much, forgive easily, and love like you haven't been hurt. - Anonymous


This would be one of the truest quotes, or phrase that I've ever read. I mean its apart of everyone. That everyone goes through this. Its just some remains silent and not care about it and then there another group of us, that just can't handle the situation the right way.

I am probably the one who doesn't really know how to handle the situation. Well not proud of it, but just stating the bare truth. Why do I really say this. I don't know but I think kinda got the picture why I say that I am this weak person.

I realize, I always portray myself as this person with problems. I think the ratio of me portraying myself to be happy : to myself with problem is like 1: 3. And I think because of this, that I always dwell myself in sadness. Like I don't really takes those happy moments I have and over think them and make me believe that hey, life isn't that bad after all.
I don't do that, and I think that is why I always feel miserable.

And I definitely feel sad for Rhys that, he has to listen to me, I mean theres no happy things that I tell him. I am gonna make a point to talk about everything that makes me happy first, before the sad part. And not so much about the sad part Because he deserves that, he deserves to laugh when he is around me because he is an amazing person.

I realize at the end of the day, its how we wanna look things at. How strong we wanna be for the situation we are currently facing. That some of us would wanna be strong and not look weak because we are afraid that people may hurt us more, and then there are some of us, who is basically the cliff and the broke, in everyday possible. And they feel like its the end, but they don't realize that not every day is a gloomy. I don't realize that tomorrow things will be okay, like how everyday is.
Its up to me whether I wanna put yesterday back and move for today.

And I know what my problems are, and what my prorates are, and I never let go of the reason of why am i here and how I am here today. Because of who, and why I wanna be here, how am I here. I know everything. Its just that sometimes, its just too much to handle, that is also depending on of degree of tolerance towards problem. At the end of the day, we get out of it. We do. There are people who don't, and right now I am not that person. I get out of my problems in a mean way but it helps, I really don't care about other. And thats how I make myself feel better.

At the end of the day we are all selfish in our own ways, that can be a good thing for us and bad thing for someone else or vice versa.

Its just life. So lets start taking loads of pictures, put these fears aside, handle things much much better. Forgive. Not asking to forget, but forgive, it makes you feel like the better person. :)


love.