future.

I don't know about every other normal twenty year old.
But me, I think about my future a lot. I mean there are a lot of things that I do and there are certain things I believe I should live the moment and there are certain things that I believe I should plan out.

Basically
Live the moment - My relationship, falling in love and all. I don't want to have a plan. Like I want it to happen and I don't want to be commitment. I really don't. I don't want to do something I am not good at. I really don't. Taking care of people and their feelings and people getting too close and then leaving me, right now, that all is too much to handle. I am not kidding.

Plan Out - How my life is gonna be, everything other than relationship and being committed to someone, anyone. Having a good job and having to earn enough to sustain my lifestyle. Being able to support my parents and send them for holidays etc. I want a family. I know, no commitment but family. I am not kidding I picture myself to be a successful woman, with a family which means kids. I mean a man can come into it, but without it, it will not make a big difference for me. I want kids I really do. You know, me and my baby.

PS : you might think its too young to like think about all this but to be honest, I can't wait to leave uni, and get over the phase of finding the "job" and then settling in life. I can't wait to settle down, because I picture myself having the job that I will love and I would look forward to doing it every single day. And a kid that I will love and just be there for.

This is how I picture it to be, but at the end, God has more power, to either change it to just let it be.