Content.

Something i realize.

Ive been ignoring my best friend. Well I just can't be around her right now. And I'm sorry.
I just can't be around people who are so happy. Im really glad that she is happy now that she has someone to share everything with. And with everything I'm feeling now, i just don't want to bother her with my problems and i know how she feels about what I'm going through
I just rather keep it all within me. So that she would just be happy. And this is why I don't feel like seeing anyone.

I don't want people asking me 'how are you?.'
I don't want to lie saying 'Im fine but inside, i just feel like stabbing anyone.'

I don't want you to care for me extra knowing that I'm not okay. I don't need your insincerity.


Ahh I fucking want to get over this phase. I really can't handle all this anymore.
Like something inside is really bothering. i don't know what why and how to just move on.