ending.

you might call me  a person who over thinks. but sigh, thats just what I'm made off i think. right now, after coming up with a list of what i need in life, and definitely, relationship in not in it. so yeah, i seem pretty happy than everything is back to normal. my list would be this :

first, i would like to keep on losing more weight.
second, i would like to learn/ continue guitar on my own so that i can play bruno mars song.
third, i would love to hang out with my friends, and have good laughs and create memories, that will make me smile when I'm 60.
fourth, i would take up korean language just to sing to all #bigbang songs. :)
fifth, I'm gonna volunteer and make myself proud of myself and because i realize today, making others happy makes me happy.


i slept just now around 11pm+ and now its 2.14am and I'm all awake having this discomfort feeling. I am really afraid about how long my happiness is gonna last. Because, when i was happy, it never lasted that long anyways. 


Thats why, sometimes, being all upset and caught up makes me comfortable because i believe that that feeling that I'm pretty much use to never goes away. 




maybe I'm just over thinking. i shall bog again tomorrow. better hit the sack sack now, early class tomorrow :)


xx