Courage.

A word that seems so easy to pronounce but so hard to imply in life would be courage. Its day for someone to ask us to be courage in life, in order not to fall back.

As it seem easy to pronounce this word, how I wish it is easy to imply to our life. Courage can mean so much so many different people. Its just that that's the only advice a person can give you

" You need courage to move on" for instant.

Seriously, bravery. Bravery takes us no where. If even if we would wanna move on from something in our life, we need our heart to open up and accept the fact that, this is not how life is gonna be. After your heart open to the fact that change in life, then you will need the courage to do it. Courage to change and accept the consequences as every norm of your life changes.

And then again, I don't blame anyone for asking me to have the courage to do things, For instant, leave home, leave mum to pursue in my future education. You know, I don't mind leaving all this, what if when I go there, I become lonely. Yes, i was brave about leaving home, and now I'm also scared if what life turns out to be something I didn't expect. And then, be brave and live life as it is.

You see, thats the thing I worry about. I thought I could do it and I tried. I failed termendously. And now due to that courage and bravery i had within me, i think i fell into this deep shit hole. I went through this phase in life, where i was like psycho loner, my best friend wanted to be there for me, but i pushed her away. I pushed everyone away from my life. I cried with no fail. And yet, there were people who hurt my feeling although they knew what I was going through.

I can have all the courage, but how long am I gonna stay strong for. People tend to pull my down more day by day and I'm sinking deeper and deeper everyday and eventually, I will sink.

I think, YES, we gotta be strong at one point and it just makes me wonder why people around you never stop hurting you. I know, the one that you love the most tend to hurt you the most. Again, we still be there for them because we are afraid that they will leave us.

If you think you have the courage to walk here alone, think again. WHAT IFyou had no one. Will you be like who you are today.

I don't think I have the courage to see change in my life yet. I mean, yes, I am still spelling courage in my life I assume. But I believe the more you hurt me, the more stronger I'm gonna become thus the more courage I will have to walk on my own.

[ Courage to shoot yourself ]