2013

Hello. ! :)
So today is the last day of 2012. And guess what I am doing.
Yup having some alone time at Starbucks cherishing the past 365 days.
The amount of laughter, love, anger, hate and frustration, all sums up to make me this person I am at this very moment.
Although heart breaks are hard to handle, I definitely believe I've dealt with it great and it has definitely made me a better person.

During this year, I've met many new people and not forgetting those old ones who never gave up on me, :) thanks. And those who I never thought would leave, which eventually left, it hurts but I guess its all lessons for me to be a better person. Thanks for that too.
As much as I miss you, I am sure what we did is for the best, the only thing I wish for is that we stop pretending to be okay, when clearly everyone knows we are not. Its sad, for many of them, but I guess people need to deal with it.

Moving on,
I realize I've made many selfish and important decisions for life in future this year. I have. And I've never worked this hard to actually do good, and thanks to all the pressure.
Decisions that I made definitely got me thinking a lot, and all the decisions, okay maybe mostly was just what I need, what I needed to do to make me better, which includes, pushing people who genuinely cared away.
I'm sorry that I had to do that, I truly am, but I cant afford to be so attach to so many people and slowly bite my heart off thinking how life would be without them. One of the greatest decisions I've made is to stay alone. I'd rather be alone than to have the thought of losing somebody, unless my mum manages to talk me out of it. My point is, I feel that at this very moment I am so attached to so many people in life, and the last thing I have to do is lure more people into my life. I don't want to do that, because I don't think all this would work, basically.

I know no one would read here, but I think I am better off writing it out that actually explaining how much they mean to me.

I love you all, for always being there and caring. Thanks for all the bitter sweet memories created throughout the year and thank you for always lending me your should when I needed one. Mostly, thanks for all the happiness that you guys gave me, thanks for the amazing 2012, and lets kick some 2013 asses, shall we?

Loads of love, 
Ashwi. 

xx.