love, hurts too much.

Hope. Its the only thing stronger than fear.
- The Hunger Games

So I really have been away for quite some time from here. I guess university took too much of my time. And honestly I realize that I can never come up with any other excuse that university. But its the truth. I guess the next four years of my life would just be, this.

So my mid semester break officially started yesterday. For one week, I mean it also includes Christmas and New Years break. Sadly, the combine everything and gave us like just one week holiday. So today is like officially the first day and what I was doing. Definitely, downloading and watching movies at home. I watched Perks of Being a Wallflower, 21 Jump Street & LOL.

By watching these movies, one this that was in common is the fact that you love something/someone too much that it actually hurts.
When I think about it, over and over again, it does really hurt because you just love this person too much, be it whoever and we are shoved with the fact that nothing last forever. Thus you know all this love, not forever. And it hurts.

They say when you fall in love, don't stumble. Just have that gentle fall because they gentle fall may keep you occupied till its gone, when its gone, that gentle fall, makes you stand near a cliff and it would be so much easier to pull yourself back together.
Sometime we can say that love is also like a knife. Just imagine, falling in love, it can either make you or break you. The knife can carve beautiful images, and also can stab right through you. Its kinda of the end of story when it stabs right through you. However, when it carve this beautiful images in your soul, when, it is always fresh. And the when carving starts to heal, its painful. healing process starts with pain. What I mean is that, think about when everything ends, all these images are memories, memories that aches, because you dont have this happiness anymore in life.

My point is that, I am not going against love or anything, me myself am in love with many people be in family or friends. Then again thinking about the fact that it does last hurts to the very core, but that doesn't make me less the important people less.

I am certain I am not degrading anyone that in love, honestly I am happy that you are, because not everyone is lucky to be in love. And there are handful of people who gives me hope to fall in love, I think. One day maybe.

Right now, it just desires that need to be fulfilled and I'll be good.

ashwi.