Dear A.

I've always imagined that when I do my degree, its not gonna be stressful and I'm gonna be on this smooth sailing both to achieve my dreams, instead of always being in the rush like when I was in my foundation year. Today I realize that I was wrong. I should have actually paid attention to all the rant Rhys did about how much he hated Monash and how stressful it can be. I dont hate Monash. I just find it so unfair. I have assignments and test for two different subject on the same day. You left me so free for the past 4 weeks and suddenly I feel like I dont have time anymore. Ive been sitting her almost 12 hours already today because I feel like theres so much to do and I dont have enough time to complete it before the due date. I'm so backdated with studying, the lecturer is in chapter 7 and i just completed chapter 4. Okay slacking is what I do, but I dont remember slacking this much in life. I need to get my shit done ASAP. Period.

I miss him. Really alot, I tend to push him aside because of uni and I tend to not go to the gym because I just really want those twp High Distinctions. Really . There's nothing else I want more right now. The last thing I wanna do is repeat during Summer School.

Dear A,
I miss you so much and I am sorry for not being there for you like how you have always been there for me. I guess this is the begining about how we are gonna be when I leave to Aussie. Its scary. Really scared to lose you but I guess I just dont have a choice do I. I feel that its the best for us and I dont know why you dont feel the same.

I promise Ill make it up to you soon.

Love,
A