last night i was talking a friend of mine. and we were basically talking about moving on and letting and avoiding and stuff like that. he made me think. what was i really trying to do. seems like i worry my friends a lot lately, but i worry myself too. i constantly ask myself about my behavior. why am i behaving like this. i use to be that person that is strong but now seems like I'm just strong outside and inside me, my world is crumbling down.
I've been crying a lot too lately. for him. and i bet he knows. but i don't think he could do anything. like right now, if i get to see him, i would really cry, because missing that guy is all i do now. i talk to him but i don't see him. maybe to many talking to that person would suffice but to me it just doesn't work. so yeah, i cry a lot that at times it makes me feel so much better. really better for a short period of time and the sense of miss comes back.
when a person cry, we cant do anything other than to tell them, things will be alright soon. and as they cry, they let go of everything they kept inside and soon they will for sure feel much better.
if i ever cry infront of you, just hold my hands and tell me, that i will be okay because i have always been and just let me cry.
I thought that this wouldn't actually last long but actually it does.
like moments after he left, seems like he just left. you know, just left and not coming back.
avoiding is just letting things be the way it is. like we dont want anymore changes . because you lost something and maybe if there is changes, we are jus afraid that we would totally lose that person.
I just want you to know that i miss you. and i would do anything right now to just turn back time.
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