Right now I'm reading this book ,
the Art of Encouragement - Candy Paull
And I wanna write this down, so that Ill keep it close to my heart.
Fear believes there is never enough
Love believes there is plenty for everyone
Fear believes the worst about people and situation
Love believes the best about people and situation
Fear believes there is only one right answer
Love believes there are many ways to understand something
Fear believes you have to change others through manipulation and coercion to get what you want
Love believes real change comes from the heart, starting with your own heart.
Fear believes things will never change
Love believes any situation can be transformed by the power of love.
Fear believes that everything must be mapped out ahead of time
Love believes that you can trust this process
Fear believes in negative thinking
Love believes in positive choice
Fear believes the damage is done
Love believes healing can happen
Fear believes if you're not success by now, you must be a failure
Love believes you're only a failure when you give up on your dreams
Fear believes I must do everything with my own strength
Love believes there is a Higher Power that wants to help me
Fear believes that everything needs to hyped
Love believes in quiet strength and simple faith
Fear believes life is cheap
Love believes life is precious.
Fear believe anyone different is them
Love believes there is only us
Fear believes its too late
Love believes its never too late
Fear believes the situation is I'm possible
Love believes a solution can be found
Fear believes that fifteen minutes of fame makes you important
Love believes we are all important
Fear believes people a disposable commodities
Love believes people are sacred
Fear believes providing your own superiority over others
Love believes in honoring the greatness in others
Fear believes no one is listening and no one caress
Love believes in prayer
Fear believes effort is only justifies by outward success
Love believes sometimes we need to do something for its own sake.
Thats it for tonight. :3
Friday, April 13, 2012
Thursday, April 12, 2012
concept of BFF
I don't know why, but the relationship I have with my close friends, is very close and it makes it look like we have a spark between each other. Its not that I like them in a way that I shouldn't, but that is just how we behave as friend, like acting cute and stuff, and people misconcept our relationship.
It tend to hurt me, for others to have the thought that we like each other or even one of us like the other, and the fact is that, we both know how much we mean to each other. And we are like that, because we are really comfortable with each other. And for us, i don't think its wrong, because our feelings are set straights.
I wish I could just not care what others think about the relationships I have my guy friends. Im sorry that we are close and you don't do things we do although you know him longer than I do. Its just that we bond.
Really well.
I just feel that I shouldn't care about what others think about it. I've talked to a friend about this before, and all he say is that
We know what we have,
Lets not care what others say,
People talk,
You don't make that as a reason for you to leave our friendship.
Well I think what he said is really true. I can't just pretend to be different and not myself around my friend because of what others think of our relationship.
The things that I could do, to maintain my friendship .
1. Ask yourself what matters to you - Definitely my friend rather than the rumors.
2. Remember that they are all not watching you - Maybe some is.
3. Recognize that their opinion can't hurt you - They can unless I don't over think and I careless.
4. Accept that you can't control what people think - ACCEPT IT.!
It tend to hurt me, for others to have the thought that we like each other or even one of us like the other, and the fact is that, we both know how much we mean to each other. And we are like that, because we are really comfortable with each other. And for us, i don't think its wrong, because our feelings are set straights.
I wish I could just not care what others think about the relationships I have my guy friends. Im sorry that we are close and you don't do things we do although you know him longer than I do. Its just that we bond.
Really well.
I just feel that I shouldn't care about what others think about it. I've talked to a friend about this before, and all he say is that
We know what we have,
Lets not care what others say,
People talk,
You don't make that as a reason for you to leave our friendship.
Well I think what he said is really true. I can't just pretend to be different and not myself around my friend because of what others think of our relationship.
The things that I could do, to maintain my friendship .
1. Ask yourself what matters to you - Definitely my friend rather than the rumors.
2. Remember that they are all not watching you - Maybe some is.
3. Recognize that their opinion can't hurt you - They can unless I don't over think and I careless.
4. Accept that you can't control what people think - ACCEPT IT.!
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
ilyylmwahf
First, I need my human alarm clock back. Im waking up late every single day. I feel bad for my lecturers who bares with my nonsense wei. I use to wake up like sharp 6am everyday. Like my biological clock is set at 6am. After the one week mid sem break. I realize I've been waking up late everysingle day.
Ahh, next week onwards, my maid needs to wake me up. She woke up later than me today. I just feel so bleagh. As usual in Web Application class and I'm blogging. I came 1 1/2 hours late. But I think the lecturer knows. :)
Yesterday was a day with pretty much mixed feelings.
It was a holiday as it was the installation for the King, and Malaysia, public holiday. And Daulat Tuanku.
I was at home the whole day and I pretty wasted my whole life with Tetris. And Tetris and Tetris. and Tetris
And at night, I went to the gym . And yesterday was the last day, training with Adam, for the next two months I wont be training. And i felt very angry and sad, that I have to work hard to get into Monash, thus no gym. The thing is that, he was always there pushing me. and now knowing, he is not gonna be yapping in my ears, my confidence level just hit 6 feet under. I was texting him, and at one point, I just dont know what to do .
I really dont. Then I went out with Kishya for dinner, and Kishya being Kishya, immediately, made myday and i totally ignored Adam and now he is ignoring me. fair much. I was very happy that I got to see me bestfriend yesterday and it really made my day. and im seeing her today also. Very excited. :) and Adam, he comes back. :) at the end. :)
Ahh, next week onwards, my maid needs to wake me up. She woke up later than me today. I just feel so bleagh. As usual in Web Application class and I'm blogging. I came 1 1/2 hours late. But I think the lecturer knows. :)
Yesterday was a day with pretty much mixed feelings.
It was a holiday as it was the installation for the King, and Malaysia, public holiday. And Daulat Tuanku.
I was at home the whole day and I pretty wasted my whole life with Tetris. And Tetris and Tetris. and Tetris
And at night, I went to the gym . And yesterday was the last day, training with Adam, for the next two months I wont be training. And i felt very angry and sad, that I have to work hard to get into Monash, thus no gym. The thing is that, he was always there pushing me. and now knowing, he is not gonna be yapping in my ears, my confidence level just hit 6 feet under. I was texting him, and at one point, I just dont know what to do .
I really dont. Then I went out with Kishya for dinner, and Kishya being Kishya, immediately, made myday and i totally ignored Adam and now he is ignoring me. fair much. I was very happy that I got to see me bestfriend yesterday and it really made my day. and im seeing her today also. Very excited. :) and Adam, he comes back. :) at the end. :)
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
imissyou
Yes. I miss so many people right now. But I wanted to set my priority straight that i had to work hard to get my ass into Monash. And I'm missing so much with my best friend. And not forgetting the fact that she is also busy with her 2nd sem. AND IM BLOODY HOOKED, cause right now, I don't want anything more that getting to do my degree.
I think its the phase that we are just so busy with our lives, and we lost track of time with everything that we use to do, like at least meet once a week. But I'm gonna force myself to see her tomorrow. I have too. She is like my significant other, like my best friend and i tell her every single shit i go through and she just know how to put the words together.
Other than the other guy lah. :) he is amazing also. :)
Sometimes, I wonder why is it that we have to grow up. Why. Why. Why. Like can we just be 18 forever. and not be 19 or 20 . Just 18, a little less commitment and problems and responsibility. And just go out, watch movies, have fun and sit in the mamak stall and talk for hours and hours. And get back into my party gear, clubbing and stuff, since I don't feel like doing any of this now as I wanna ace in my studies.
Maybe its the phase where we need some time away and we just don't wanna put any effort and meet. Or maybe its just me, or its just you. Thats I don't want to put any effort to find free time and keep myself bloody hooked with stuff. And I'm sorry. I am really. But I'm glad I'm seeing you tomorrow, although just for awhile. Its something . at least. :)
Everybody needs some time away,
I heard her say,
From each other.
- Hard to say I'm Sorry, Westlife
Babe, thank you so much for being there with me and I want you to know that Ill always be here for you no matter what happens. And grow old together as the best friend, that everyone envies. I may not be the best person to express my love to you, but the fact is, I really love you for being an amazing friend and Ill learn how to express my love towards you :)
J Kishyarani Jayabalan
I LOVE YOU :)
I think its the phase that we are just so busy with our lives, and we lost track of time with everything that we use to do, like at least meet once a week. But I'm gonna force myself to see her tomorrow. I have too. She is like my significant other, like my best friend and i tell her every single shit i go through and she just know how to put the words together.
Other than the other guy lah. :) he is amazing also. :)
Sometimes, I wonder why is it that we have to grow up. Why. Why. Why. Like can we just be 18 forever. and not be 19 or 20 . Just 18, a little less commitment and problems and responsibility. And just go out, watch movies, have fun and sit in the mamak stall and talk for hours and hours. And get back into my party gear, clubbing and stuff, since I don't feel like doing any of this now as I wanna ace in my studies.
Maybe its the phase where we need some time away and we just don't wanna put any effort and meet. Or maybe its just me, or its just you. Thats I don't want to put any effort to find free time and keep myself bloody hooked with stuff. And I'm sorry. I am really. But I'm glad I'm seeing you tomorrow, although just for awhile. Its something . at least. :)
Everybody needs some time away,
I heard her say,
From each other.
- Hard to say I'm Sorry, Westlife
Babe, thank you so much for being there with me and I want you to know that Ill always be here for you no matter what happens. And grow old together as the best friend, that everyone envies. I may not be the best person to express my love to you, but the fact is, I really love you for being an amazing friend and Ill learn how to express my love towards you :)
J Kishyarani Jayabalan
I LOVE YOU :)
Just like us. :)
Sunday, April 8, 2012
RhysLJW
Sleep is productive to the soul. - Rhys
Wrapping this fact around my head.
When I was young, i remember listening to really good music from really good bands. Like Westlife. I feel so Nostalgic listening to them today. I lost the sight of them, and how much I use to love them. Remembering how my dad use to get Westlife CD's for us. It felt so good to take roadtrips and listening to them.
I dont know how much Westlife can make you remember your childhood but for me, I remember the days I had in my primary school. It felt good. Right now, I wish I could find all the Westlife CD that Dad use to collect.
Moving on,
Wrapping this fact around my head.
When I was young, i remember listening to really good music from really good bands. Like Westlife. I feel so Nostalgic listening to them today. I lost the sight of them, and how much I use to love them. Remembering how my dad use to get Westlife CD's for us. It felt so good to take roadtrips and listening to them.
I dont know how much Westlife can make you remember your childhood but for me, I remember the days I had in my primary school. It felt good. Right now, I wish I could find all the Westlife CD that Dad use to collect.
Moving on,
today is my bestfriends birthday. And I want him to know I love him for always being there for me, through up's and downs. I have the most amazing time with him. Like he knows how to make me feel better and make me believe in something that I dont. We are so busy nowadays, that we have our own stuff to do and I'm so busy to get my ass to Monash. Lets make the best out of it :) I hope you likes your birthday gift.
Kishya, Ashwi, Rhys
Have a great one love.
Happy 20th Birthday . :)
Friday, April 6, 2012
misconception.
I was watching this one documentary about how people look at things about africa? By this lady called Unity.C . This was one of Pop Tech's conference.
And she explain to different situation with the same point and why we look at things the different way.
Adam was about to propose to Amanda, and he bought her a really pretty diamond ring which worth around 20,000 USD. And everyone was very happy, they say the diamond expressed how much they loved each other.
on the other hand,
James was about to propose to Alicia. And he gave her 20 cows in order to get Alicia from a parents. And this was against the society as they say that the girl has to be bought from their parents in Africa.
What about thinking that, 20 cows cause 20,000 dollars and this means a way of the African's showing love.. Instead of getting diamond rings.
Then they came up saying that, they are torturing the animals. 20 cows.
Then what about digging up the earth to get the diamond worth 20k dollars
i think this is something that we should really ponder on.
And she explain to different situation with the same point and why we look at things the different way.
Adam was about to propose to Amanda, and he bought her a really pretty diamond ring which worth around 20,000 USD. And everyone was very happy, they say the diamond expressed how much they loved each other.
on the other hand,
James was about to propose to Alicia. And he gave her 20 cows in order to get Alicia from a parents. And this was against the society as they say that the girl has to be bought from their parents in Africa.
What about thinking that, 20 cows cause 20,000 dollars and this means a way of the African's showing love.. Instead of getting diamond rings.
Then they came up saying that, they are torturing the animals. 20 cows.
Then what about digging up the earth to get the diamond worth 20k dollars
i think this is something that we should really ponder on.
Monday, April 2, 2012
force, x
I push people away, then ill feel relieve a little. because theres one less who is gonna hurt me, then after awhile, i feel rather empty. :/ sometimes, very empty and i get this tingling feeling that i don't understand.
I don't know why I'm so afraid of them hurting me. Why that I can't handle things and why I just can't be normal with all this, because i believe this is part and parcel of life. And i tell this to my friends that even i can't imply to myself.
Its very weird that when you look at it from far, the road seems so perfect and the closer you go to appreciate the beauty, you find holes. emptiness, ugliness. everything that just not the niche of life.
Sometimes, i tend to be really mean to people, its not that i don't. its one of the weakness that i seem to can't get my hands off, when I'm really upset, i tend to get annoyed with everything around me, and when people come up to me with questions, i tend to give mean answers. i don't want you to try to understand my feelings. i really don't. I just want you to not care. because you asking me, is never gonna make me feel better. i don't want to torture your life with my ever longing problems. i just want you to not care. about what i feel. one minute i rant, the next i get over it and move on. its not a permanent thing, don't come up to me about it. i don't want to hurt your feelings because at the end of the day, i will feel really bad about it, like now.
looking back, there are many things that i just don't understand about myself. that why is it hard to just let go. and believe no one is like them. why i get so attached to people and when they leave, it tears me up so much.
like i said before, i know it nothing permanent. as time flies, i believe al this worries would too. everything is about time. And i think we should not just rush into things. :)
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